Mutual Exclusivity… Truly one of my favorite turns of phrase. Life is hard/God is good… Hope is real/I feel hopeless My life has no...

Destiny. I wasn’t destined for this life. I wasn’t destined for the hope I have in my heart. I wasn’t destined for the peace that I own…...

REST… When did this word become so wrong? Wasn’t it part of our grand design… It is and will never stop being core to who we are as a...

Art Thoughts: Spider-Man: Across The SpiderVerse! This film is a masterpiece. There is no better word to associate with it. Every frame...

Panic… My heart stops… And worries. And wonders. And rehashes… Pulls back the curtain on my wall of memories dictated by that one word....

Happiness! Where did I find this? This wasn’t meant for me. This wasn’t a part of the plan… Fate is baffled. And I smile and I dance, and...

Communicate. What does that word mean? I wasn’t familiar. Silence and abuse… Those were the two extremes and the only languages I grew up...

FATHER… My nightmare… My dream… My hope. Hope… Hope Bethel John. I fear I will repeat the mistakes of those that came before me. I am...

Fear… Fear… There are cute acronyms for this word. The pain. The darkness. The heartbreak. I awoke this morning anxious, and afraid and...

FAMILY. It’s all about family… My family tried. They did their best… Don’t get me wrong. But… I associated fear… trauma… abuse…...

Love… It eludes me. Constantly. It scares me. It has scarred me. It has made me feel whole. And indestructible. I cannot live without it....

Closure… I asked the Lord… Why did they hurt me? Why did they assume the worst in me? Why do they keep making me feel unworthy? He simply...

Home… Good morning, mone. Good morning, sweetie. Thank you, love. Love you… From a closing car door. They sound simple and like words...

FIGHT! Stand up and fight. If you believe you’re ready, fight! If you believe you’re not… Fight till you get to the point where you are....

The Calm My heart used to rage… It was the norm. It was what I was taught love looked like. There was no calm… There was no peace…...

Almost forgot about this one! The inspiration for Book 3. Purpose in Pain. I wonder how. I wonder why. I pray I’ll find the reason. My...

Perceive… Perceive… You perceive the worst in me. Your experiences make you question my intent… They make you worry at my kindness. They...

Eternity… I cry to my Savior. Why have you allowed this to be so hard? Why has this hand been so poorly dealt I wait in the wings. For my...

Standards I overhear… And I worry. And I pray. That they may come to realize how special she is. And how worthy and deserving of a...

The Performer… Why did I want to perform? At the start, it was to feel seen and loved. To feel like I mattered. I found my worth in it… I...