Sam John
FEAR
Fear… Fear… There are cute acronyms for this word. The pain. The darkness. The heartbreak. I awoke this morning anxious, and afraid and...
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Sam John
Jun 4, 20231 min read
FAMILY
FAMILY. It’s all about family… My family tried. They did their best… Don’t get me wrong. But… I associated fear… trauma… abuse…...
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Sam John
Jun 4, 20231 min read
Love...
Love… It eludes me. Constantly. It scares me. It has scarred me. It has made me feel whole. And indestructible. I cannot live without it....
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Sam John
Jun 4, 20231 min read
Closure
Closure… I asked the Lord… Why did they hurt me? Why did they assume the worst in me? Why do they keep making me feel unworthy? He simply...
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Sam John
Jun 1, 20231 min read
HOME
Home… Good morning, mone. Good morning, sweetie. Thank you, love. Love you… From a closing car door. They sound simple and like words...
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Sam John
Jun 1, 20231 min read
FIGHT!!!
FIGHT! Stand up and fight. If you believe you’re ready, fight! If you believe you’re not… Fight till you get to the point where you are....
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Sam John
Jun 1, 20231 min read
The Calm
The Calm My heart used to rage… It was the norm. It was what I was taught love looked like. There was no calm… There was no peace…...
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Sam John
May 31, 20231 min read
Purpose in Pain
Almost forgot about this one! The inspiration for Book 3. Purpose in Pain. I wonder how. I wonder why. I pray I’ll find the reason. My...
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Sam John
May 30, 20231 min read
Poetic Prose: Perceive.
Perceive… Perceive… You perceive the worst in me. Your experiences make you question my intent… They make you worry at my kindness. They...
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Sam John
May 30, 20231 min read
Eternity.
Eternity… I cry to my Savior. Why have you allowed this to be so hard? Why has this hand been so poorly dealt I wait in the wings. For my...
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Sam John
May 30, 20231 min read
Standards
Standards I overhear… And I worry. And I pray. That they may come to realize how special she is. And how worthy and deserving of a...
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Sam John
May 30, 20231 min read
The Performer
The Performer… Why did I want to perform? At the start, it was to feel seen and loved. To feel like I mattered. I found my worth in it… I...
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Sam John
May 29, 20231 min read
ReGret. Poetic Prose 6
ReGret… I don’t. I simply do not. Because I am overwhelmingly aware that each step of my journey was used for good. My days when I wanted...
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Sam John
May 29, 20231 min read
Tim Keller: The Meaning of Marriage.
Thank you Tim Keller for your words of wisdom that will live on. The Meaning of Marriage addresses singlehood in a new and meaningful...
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Sam John
May 29, 20231 min read
Memorial Day 2023. Thank you...
Thank you, thank you, thank you... Yes, War is a tragic and painful part of this world we live in. But, we live in a broken world and...
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Sam John
May 29, 20231 min read
A Day in The Life
Processing and journalling. 5-hour chill workout. 2 LB Roast Chicken. Gatorade Bottle. Mosying about my city. Life is good. And so is...
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Sam John
May 28, 20231 min read
Home attacked by pride.
I refuse to allow pride to ruin my home... Not again. It will take work. A lot of work. But it is work I am willing to do....
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Sam John
May 28, 20231 min read
Pride
PRIDE. IT’S BLINDING. IT’S HEARTBREAKING. IT IS A LIAR. IT IS A DECEIVER. But…. It is my friend. Or so it seems. It makes me feel more...
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Sam John
May 28, 20231 min read
Home...
Poetic Prose 3. Home… The word scares me. The idea of it makes me leap with joy. But the reality I lived through never made me feel like...
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Sam John
May 27, 20231 min read
Hope... Book 2.
Hope... Across The Multiverse. Path 1. Sneak Peek. How does 1 word bring multiple timelines together all for God's perfect plan and...
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