First Love.

I love you.

I had never said it to someone before.

I don’t think i had ever meant it.

This time, i did.

I looked into her beautiful green-blue eyes.

I knew there was pain that existed there.

I knew there was pain in my own.

I wanted all of her.

I wrote. I dreamed. I thought. I did.

I gave it everything i had.

I loved her with everything in me.

Every breath. Every movement. Every thought.

I wanted to be the man she deserved.

The partner i had dreamt of being.

Every time i saw her, my world stopped.

My heart skipped more beats than i care to admit.

I looked at her and saw a home.

A future.

A place where for the first time i felt safe in silence.

Safe... Next to her. My heart held and my soul seen.

And... I waited.

I didn’t hear it back.

I knew this was it. But i didn’t let myself believe it.

I wanted us to stay. For things to stay the same.

But that’s not how life works.

I want to go back. To the best day of my life.

Surrounding her with my love.

I will always love you.

But now, i need to love me, too.

Thank you, my angel.

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