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DISSERVICE.

  • Writer: Sam John
    Sam John
  • Jul 27, 2024
  • 1 min read

What a disservice.


To this season of my life.


I am so concerned with what I think i deserve.



I’ve lost sight of what is.


fantasizing of what could be.


I’ve let this season slip for so long.



I have ignored it.


I have chosen to push and push.


But now... I want to be.


Simply be.



At peace and fully embracing all of it.


The loneliness. the aches. the joys.


the thankfulness.


why waste time?


stuck in the future.


this thing. this person. this idea...


will make it all better.


it never does.


stop. pause. hope. love. endure.



I feel like I’ve spent the last few months


craving and wanting.


desiring. demanding. comparing.



a hopeless posture.


of self-pity and sorrow.



Stand up and be still.



 
 
 

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