Ramblings of the Soul #1

Ramblings of the Soul:

Failure.

This book has a lot to say about rejection.

What hasn’t been said, however, is something about failure.

Like it or not, failure is a direct result of rejection.

They go hand in hand and are an undeniable one-two punch to the heart and soul.

I mourn and rejoice in the fact that they are such familiar bedfellows to me.

They go hand in hand with the story of who I am and whom I’ve chosen to be.

It was the first 100 or so rejections and failures that left me scared, alone, and in so much pain at the age of 16 in Bangalore, crying and pleading that God would take my life when I was unable to muster up the strength to do it myself.

I would say around 900 or so more rejections and failures later (give or take a couple hundred), I find myself as a completely different person. A good man serving a perfect God.

Who would’ve seen that one coming? I can promise you it wasn’t me.

This story is something that is a testimony to the power of failure and rejection and the ability of the God of the universe to turn it all for good.

I don’t know what’s next, but I do know that I’m on the winning side.

I do still believe it was God whispering to me, in my pain to “breathe” and “just you wait”, but part of me also believes that the God who is beyond time and space, took that message from me now to the boy I was and promised him that everything would be okay.

Something in my bones knows that right now, I’m talking to the boy I was and saying “it’s gonna be okay. I promise.”