Lamentation.

Lamentation.

Jesus… Why?

Why have you left me? I cried out to Him.

I see the pieces of my heart shattered and scattered.

I wonder why He’s so hard on me.

Why he makes it a point to discipline when I stray a hair off course.

Why can’t you heal this sickness?

Tear away this bitterness. And these insecurities.

Why do I have to pay for the poor behavior of others?

Why am I the one who seems to lose. Every. Damn. Time.

And I rage.

And I grieve. And I scream. And I fall to my knees.

And beg him to see me. And be beside me.

There is no one in this life for me…

Why can’t I shake this narrative.

Why can’t I lean into the beauty that is found in myself and who He is?

I can… I have. And I will.

I shout out from beneath the rubble of heartache and anguish.

He looks right into my eyes and simply says: trust me.

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