I’m Tired. Of Lying To Myself.
Lying Yo Everyone Else.
“I’m Okay, I’ll Be Okay.”
The Past Year Hasn’t Been Okay.
It’s Been Hard.
I Continued To Pour Everything I Had Into Everything I Loved.
And They Simply Ceased To Love Me Back.
I Don’t Have Time To Feel.
I Don’t Have The Ability To Let This Go.
I Have To Face It.
I Have To Come To Terms With It.
These Lies.
People Are Inherently Good.
God Is For Me.
The Pain Will Stop.
I Deserve Good Things In This Life.
I Keep Doing The Right Thing.
I Keep Fighting The Good Fight.
Showing Up For People.
Loving God. Loving People.
I Can’t Do It, Anymore.
I Need A Break.
I Need To Stop.
Before I Break Beyond Repair.
The Darkness Is Consuming Me.
And I Can’t Do This Game Of Unrequited Love, Anymore.
I’ve Played This Game Since I Was A Child.
Forced To Earn The Love Of My Parents.
My Friends. The Girls I Liked.
And Even The People That Abused Me.
And A God I Somehow Kept Believing In.
I Need To Breathe.
And I Need To Do It Alone.
I Have To. For The First Time...
On My Own.
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