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Writer's pictureSam John

LIES

I’m Tired. Of Lying To Myself.


Lying Yo Everyone Else.


“I’m Okay, I’ll Be Okay.”


The Past Year Hasn’t Been Okay.


It’s Been Hard.


I Continued To Pour Everything I Had Into Everything I Loved.


And They Simply Ceased To Love Me Back.


I Don’t Have Time To Feel.


I Don’t Have The Ability To Let This Go.


I Have To Face It.


I Have To Come To Terms With It.



These Lies.


People Are Inherently Good.


God Is For Me.


The Pain Will Stop.


I Deserve Good Things In This Life.



I Keep Doing The Right Thing.


I Keep Fighting The Good Fight.


Showing Up For People.


Loving God. Loving People.


I Can’t Do It, Anymore.


I Need A Break.


I Need To Stop.


Before I Break Beyond Repair.



The Darkness Is Consuming Me.


And I Can’t Do This Game Of Unrequited Love, Anymore.



I’ve Played This Game Since I Was A Child.


Forced To Earn The Love Of My Parents.


My Friends. The Girls I Liked.


And Even The People That Abused Me.


And A God I Somehow Kept Believing In.



I Need To Breathe.


And I Need To Do It Alone.


I Have To. For The First Time...


On My Own.



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